Life, Love and Death (It was never about me.....uncensored)

†DEATH: Who am I?†

†I’m a STARGAZER. It's like looking at those bright, blinking, mirrors feels like a complete home video. It's like seeing my whole life flashes in front of me. But it's not a couple of seconds; it feels like a couple of scores. It's like my heart are going to burst in flames or something like that. It has some sort of pattern. All the mistakes, hard work, sacrifices, sorrow, joy, dreams, regrets, up's & down's, motivations, aggravations, beliefs, hopes, the mundane & every goddamn thing in between. It's like reading a book, but u will not go through that getting-to-know-the-story stage coz' it's your life. You already know its web of unpredictability, how it begins. It's just a matter of time 4 you to know how will it end. †

†"I still don’t know why I am here or what I will do with my life... but I’m sure when I’m gone... I have leaved a good mark on this fucking stupid world! Maybe to make this world a better place to live... I don’t feel any shame or regrets...I won’t apologize...Why it feels more REAL when I DREAM than when I am AWAKE? What if my senses are LYING? I don’t care, if u don’t’ care...”†

†"all those years I suffer, those was the best years of my life, it made me who I am, a better person, all the years I was happy, shit it was a total waste, Not total but you get my point, I didn’t learn a god damn thing."†

†" I want to do the things that I love ,I’ll find a way no matter what, when It’s done, then fuck the rest, man fuck ‘em all."†

†"you guys know what a real loser is? A real loser is something that so afraid of not wining, they don’t even try"†

†LOVE: What about us? †

This is me.....

†IM A VERY NOSTALGIC PERSON
IM A STAR WARS GEEK
A FREAK & WIERDO
IM COOL, LOVES TO FOOL AROUND,
WATCH MOVIES AND TV SHOWS
MY FRIENDS ALWAYS SAY I HAVE A GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR, BUT SOME SAYS
IM SO SERIOUS.†

† LIKE TO WRITE ANYTHING THAT COMES FROM MY MIND, IN MY JOURNAL.
FROM DAY TO DAY EXPERIENCES, TO IDEAS, OPINIONS AND EVERYTHING UNDER THE CREAKY DOOR. †

†I LOVED TO EAT AND I THINK EVERYONE DOES, MY FAVORITE CHARACTER IN STAR WARS IS DARTH MAUL THE SITH LORD WHO WIELD A DOUBLE EDGE LIGHTSABER, BUT ON THE EXPANDED UNIVERSE ITS DARTH NIHILUS AND DARTH REVAN, THEY ROCK ASTIG TALAGA. †

†I LOVED TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES AND SURF THE WEB,
I HATE POSERS, THE PHIL GOV, GMA, PEOPLE WHO ARE PAPAMPAM,
SEAN KINGSTON, SOULJA BOY, MOVIENIGHT W/OUT FOOD ON THE FRIDGE AND BAD UGLY MOVIES. †

†I PERSONALLY HATE THE SYSTEM W/ IS WRONG, IMMORAL, CORRUPT AND HURTFUL. BUT YOU CANT STAY MAD WHEN THERE IS SO MUCH BEAUTY IN THIS WORLD. †

This is My Girl.....

†Some1 whose PREETY, SWEET, KIND, SMART, UNDERSTANDING, FUNNY, PASSIONATE, SIMPLE, COOL, EASY 2 BE W/, HAS A SOOTHING VOICE, SOFT HANDS & SEXY BODY, why not?†

†LOVES 2 PLAY VIDEO GAMES, WATCH T.V. SHOWS & MOVIES.READ BOOKS & COOKS.GOOD LISTENER & GOD FEARING.†

†Some1 who knows WHAT SHE WANTS & WHO SHE IS.a liitle bit REBELIOUS.Some1 who'll LAUGH at MY DUMB JOKES WHEN NO 1 DOES.Some1 whose FACE will TAKE ME AWAY 2 a BETTER PLACE & the REASON WHY im STILL BREATHING.†

†The SUN & the MOON 2 ME.†

†i know SHE's OUTHERE, SOMEWHERE outhere. and im gonna FIND HER, MAYBE TOMORROW!SOONER or LATER,WHATEVER IT TAKES!†

†MAYBE i already FOUND HER.but if im WRONG, i will CONTINUE my SEARCH until the DAY i SEE her SMILE!†

†i will THANK GOD 4 every SECOND of my LIFE im gonna SPEND w/ her.
i will ALWAYS TRY 2 KEEP my PROMISES.†

†I WILL NOT promise her the i-will-never-break-your-heart or i-will-never-hurt-you crap!†

†i'll BE THERE 4 HER & i will ALWAYS LOVE HER...

until my LAST BREATHE DIES!†

†About A Girl:†
(the one that got away)

†Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there...Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools.It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor.And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake.The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there.I mean,I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her... the truth is u come into this world alone and leave it the exact same way...†

†i looked a her straight in the eye,
like im a kid on my b-day & she was like a gift that i wanted 4 so long & now i finally saw wats inside the box...

i guess she gave me more than what i bargain 4!†


†LIFE: Live, Life!†

† used to be a jolly good fella, but I changed. In more ways, a lot of ways. Sooner or later the inevitable will catch up w/U. I changed coz every effort I made were not appreciated. More often than not, neglected, by the same people who were the reason why I did all those B.S. anyway. Dammit, I sound like a chick! It's not cool bro. it's fucking ironic! XP†

†Top 10 MOMENST OF MY LIFE: so far†
1.The day i was born.
2.When i was a little kid and would go to the roof at the middle of the cold night to stargazed.
3.The day i got my 1st kiss.
4.When im being nostalgic and thinking/wondering what was my past days like.
5.When i hear a favorite song on any given day.
6.When i was dreaming, imagining, seeing, visualizing, things that is beautiful on any given day.
7.When i found god.
8.Everyday My girlfriend and i cuddle together, laugh about many things & made love.
9.Everyday i watch a movie.
10.Every single day since i meet you!